i just hope i've done my due diligence and civic duty and represented. >> i mean, there's so much stuff going on with the media and you see so many things, it just brings back those emotions. it brings back the emotions how you felt when you were watching the video. and just finding different ways to deal with it. finding different ways to deal with that trauma of seeing this and being part of this. >> are you sure you're okay? are you guys sure you're okay? >> i think we're the best we can be. >> yes. >> or we're doing the best we can be at this moment. >> did it change anything for you, any of your perspectives on policing, on community, on race, on anything? did anybody have any sort of epiphany, or i'm sure it was a learning experience. anyone? you, nichole? >> definitely learning experience. there's no way to wrap your head around all of it. so i had my opinions on things, but i think this shined a light on other things i didn't know