and we, you know, we got a divorce, and i felt bad about that. you know, i broke her heart. >> after we split, like, it was rough and ugly. >> and it was at this volatile time that the new york times reached out, wanting to print one of lennon's articles. >> that's a huge deal. and most people don't get an e-mail that says we want to publish you in the "new york times," but he was going to have to have me to help him do that. >> lennon has now been published more than 20 times in different newspapers and magazines. in various articles, he writes about his victim, alex lawson, as a fellow gun-toting thug immersed in gangster culture and a drug dealer -- descriptions that don't sit well with lawson's family, especially since many readers know alex lawson only from how his killer, john lennon, portrays him. lennon calls his work immersive