initial trial because you had the desire for a jury trial, but you ended up with a bench trial, meaning a judge was the soul decider of your fate what happened? >> i'm going to actually feel the question about what happened at the trial. and so one of the issues is that people, when they come into the legal system, they're given advice by their attorneys about whether to take a bench trial or a jury trial. and because the witnesses in the case were so so obviously bad, a lot of attorneys would say, look, there's these gang members, they are bad. this, judge, i know from my practice, this judge used to be a public defender like the one in this case. and so they're like yeah, a bench trial makes sense. and when you're young and you're teenager in your 20s and you're really reliant upon the things that the attorney said& their advice because they're the ones who opt into the system. >> what was that like when you learn that would be a judge and