event in her journal. >> it's a highly negative event and negative experience for me and not something i wished to remember. >> reporter: nor does she want to remember the day alexander died. >> the events of june 4th, 2008, do you want to remember those? >> there's a part of me that doesn't ever want to remember it. i feel like i'm the person who deserves to sit with those memories. >> reporter: randi kaye, cnn, phoenix, arizona. >> i want to bring in vinnie politan and ryan smith. you have the best perspective, you've been wall to wall on the coverage. truly as a juror you see a trial wall to wall. as a tv viewer you see exerts and as much as the network can provide. in this particular case the jury