in that moment, and did she talk to you about it given that you were her body guard at the time? >> she didn't talk to anyone really about it. she broke down. she was in tears. she went -- she was in the room, and at one point she removed her wedding ring from her finger and placed it on the president's hand. she was very tearful, sad. it was a very, very touching scene to see her there. >> and clint, what was going through your mind when you knew you lost a president under your watch and the watch of the secret service. of the entire secret service of 38 people, only 10 were working that day. what was going through your head out that moment? a sense of guilt because it's your job to keep the president