>> yes. >> do you think that was ben's sort of state of mind? i know this is playing with fire a little bit, but i'm not going to die. >> i don't think that he knew that this could kill him. >> vinod finds some solace from his son's death by funding programs that educate people about the dangers of misusing prescription drugs. and recently he made a $1 million pledge to the clinton global initiative to support the former president's newfound passion about this issue. >> he said, i have been very fortunate, and my son is worth $1 million. >> it's still hard to talk about. >> it is. it is. >> do you think it ever won't be? >> no. i think about him all the time. like i'm in d.c. today so i went walking on the gw campus looking for him. >> looking for him. >> yes.