spoken by my husband under the assumption that it was private, just a conversation between two people put out there for the whole world to look at. and then it was also very difficult. we had aviation experts that wanted to chime in and make assumptions about him that were not -- they didn't fit with the person i knew. these were total strangers that had never met jeff at all, and they all had an opinion and they all wanted to have their name in the paper. i don't know what the motivation was. >> you stayed in touch with jim. he's a paraplegic, i believe, and he lives with a tremendous burden of all these people dying. it's probably a harsh question, but in a way, are you pleased that your husband has. had to live in that kind of condition with that kind of burden? >> i've said many, many times that i don't think that jim drew the lone straw. i don't think that my husband could have lived with a