we didn't have anything as so to speak a normal life, and we didn't live like most people did. we were in hiding. we lived in hiding my entire childhood and many different names. it was a challenge. so as i grew older, i became mute during the journey and i didn't speak, just to my sister here and there, and as i got older, i was taking notes in my mind, so to speak. i was always dreaming in my head, that's how i survived it, and dreaming of getting away and having a different life and eventually that came into reality as i got older and my reasoning grew and i was able to plot a way to get away, you know, plot it, and i eventually got out, so it has not been easy because i had to integrate into mainstream without any