and i, like a lot of other people, cannot afford to go and get this treatment done privately. so physically, it sounds like it's really challenging with lots of sort of physical pain. yeah. what's the, what's the mental impact being on you, on your mental health, do you think? i won't go out and meet new people. i avoid crowded situations. i walk with my head down a lot of the time. at work, if somebody�*s standing there having a conversation with me and they make me laugh, i hang my head when i'm laughing because ijust, i just know what they're seeing in front of their face. you've got to show me how to turn this on again. don't squirt me, though. yeah. don't squirt me. got it? reckon that's enough?