way i'm breaking up with her. >> and that's exactly what happened. samantha broke up with matthias, but if that was a sign from god he still wasn't ready and he fell from another one he thought was the won. >> i had everything i wanted in a girl and the wife of my future children. and there was something missing, i kept getting this prompting, give everything to the lord, leave the girl of your dreams. it's very difficult. >> it's a risk. >> it's a huge risk. but that's what love is. if god is changing me, the one whom i love, the one who's changed my life, who am i to say no to god. >> but just as matthias was about to enter seminary news of the sex scandal stunned the world. >> there's two responses to evil. either i allow that evil to in a sense discourage me from doing good, or i actually use that as a motivation to do all the more