all right. i'm like, damn, man. and i look. damn i'm in the hospital. i got shot in the arm. i'm like what the -- >> and despite being shot, for kiki the temptations of gang life were all around. what do you think it was that drew you to it in the first place. joining in the white fence was no big deal to kiki. >> all of my friends are all in gangs. >> he says he never ran from it. in the hard world twisted logic of hollenbeck, his gang filled all of his needs -- friends, family, fights. >> i have my last name on my back. >> older veterans schooled him on the logic of gang reality and the rules of engagement. drive-by shootings were okay, as long as they didn't kill innocent kids. >> that's a no-no. i mean, damn, they don't know right from wrong. us, who are holding the gun, do. >>fane a homeboy was killed,