you know, it'sjust, itjust impacted everything. my confidence when i play, how i dealt with issues, that when growing up and, you know, and you know, then how i cope with certain things and i think like, you know mind offers that space and that's why i wanted to work with them and it's important for people to kind of go there and if they're having issues. the environment in the nfl, it's very macho, it's very alpha male. so opening up about how you feel might be seen as a sign of weakness, but how did you sort of marry the two aspects of your life with that together? notjust only in the nfl, right? you know, just even in the communities, even in the house, in african households, in lots of households, it's very taboo. and especially as a man like it's like, well, just get on with it. you know, it's always this mindset of all someone else has it worse. so itjust kind of negates your feelings and, you know, and pushes it down. and i have an amazing platform, you know, and i, i felt some type of way and it was impacting my, my life. it was impacting the way i treat people,