>> that's what it's called and the other name for it is 50-year-old shoulder which is really rubbing salt in the wound. every doctor they say we don't know why it happens but know it gets better by itself. it's like a weird curse. where is the medical science? why all these drugs working? i could have an operation if i wanted which would speed it up, but, you know, i'm not big on hospitals and things like that. i think trying -- whatever -- i think i'm going to die, i -- everything is terminal but i think it will get better if i wish it away. >> well for you, everyone that follows you on twitter they will know you're a pathological attest and the thought of death is the final thought, the start of something new and gorgeous for you that's it. >> for me it's the end of something glorious, so i have to pack it all in, but, you know, i'm not depressed about it.