i am nothing to my biological father. that hurts. it seems so cold and calculated, and it is something so foreign to who i am and how i go through life, and how i experience my relationships, that it's hard for me to relate to someone like that. but at what point do you become so callous to this and so calculated that this is just a normal routine? like, how does this become normalised for him? the bbc reached out to both dr kim mcmorries in texas and dr paul bjones in colorado. neither responded to our multiple requests for comment. i feel like this circumstance bringing us together has really been the only silver lining to this entire situation. to be able to look at someone and see a bit of yourself, it was a unique and new experience for me that i found very settling and comforting.