and he believes his life was ruined. >> i feel emotional. something i have to do. i want the people in the world to know how we suffered at the hands of the abusers. >> reporter: those abusers were running a catholic children's home here and when gram here in 1970, he was a 14-year-old able-bodied schoolboy in their care. >> i have memories of this place will haunt me until i die. i had to come back here today not just for me but for all the other damaged children. all right graham's one of 155 men now suing the church for the trauma and the cruelty they suffered in the largest civil case of this kind in england. graham believes the abusers ruined not just his own life but that of hundreds of other boys.