tend to believe it. you want to hold onto the fact that you're not going to be a stigmatized convicted felon for the rest of your life. >> you feel so alone sometimes. like even though you might be in a room with a bunch of people, but i don't -- i think sherri has thought this some, too, but we -- it's like we're the only ones in this room that their son was murdered. and even at sentencing they asked him if he wanted to apologize, and he said, why? it wouldn't do any good. >> in sentencing there was a lot of things i wanted to say to the family, but i was sick. i could barely talk. and they spent two hours just reading and just saying everything bad you could say. and could you really blame them? i mean, their son's gone, and the more i wanted to turn and apologize to them, i felt, what's the point? it's not going to help. >> wesley took our lives away