was supposed to be. i think god just let us figure it out when we go along but we have to be in a place to hear it. i know people will make fun of that and whatever. but as people came up to me over, i said a minute ago my job is humbling. my job is also frightening at times. i'm no different than you. i'm just a guy that finds me in a remarkable situation. people ask me what do we do? i don't have a clue. i don't have a clue. i'm looking for the answers myself. marie? >> i was so into my job that i had forgotten what was important in life. i hadn't been to church in ten years. it hadn't prayed. i had a wonderful husband. stepson, children, my own children. i didn't know what this country stood for anymore. i didn't know what i stood