that is i will begin to process it once i'm not on the job, so to speak. you see a lot of stuff that doesn't make you feel good inside. i think there's going to be some serious decompression once i'm back stateside. >> when you went to ukraine, the war was a possibility. now it's a reality. what was that like, the changes between the possibility and the reality? >> that's probably most unique aspect of this conflict so far to me. i've been in iraq and syria and, you know, not that conflict belongs in one part of the world anymore, it was just more of a fact of life by the time i got there. here it wasn't. here a week ago i think it was a week ago, maybe eight or nine days, time has sort of blurred together but around that time everything was pretty much normal. there was a bit more tension than there had been the previous