there. >> the prime time exclusive of how she has rebuilt her life. and a primetime world wide exclusive with the jacksons, jackie, jermaine, marlon and tito back on the stage together after nearly 30 years, and for the first time since their brother michael's tragic death. >> i think that the challenge of getting back to the stage would be something this the celebration of 40 years in show business. >> this is piers morgan tonight. good evening. we will get to my interview with the jacksons coming up. but with the summer olympics coming up in just a few weeks, one person knows how important the anti-doping screening will be is marion jones. she won in sydney, but lost it all in 2010 after being sent to prison. does that sound weird to you having your name associated with prison? because i remember the sydney olympics and you running like the wind and this incredible athlete, and you were so inspiring and brilliant, and when i have to even read those words, i feel bad. you know, never mind how you must feel. >> yes. gosh, how do you even put it in words? it has been now, you know, three years since i left prison, and it is still not easy to comprehe comprehend. i search for the right adjectives to describe, you know, who -- i certainly never would have thought ten years ago that my life would have taken the turn that it had, and that it has. and so, yeah, it is still hard when people describe, you know, my history and situation. it seems like it is somebody else, like you are not talking about me, but some other person. >> and there is such an extreme that you have had to endure. you have gone from champion, olympic champion, multiple olympic champion to felon. and the gap between those two positions in the public estimation, i guess in your own estimation is just so massive, isn't it? >> i think that people don't really -- it is hard for people to grasp the everything that happened. i think that when people saw me on television and then they meet me, they are like, how in the world can this all happen? but what i try to tell people is that, you know, anybody can make a mistake, and certainly mine was massive, and it was in the public eye, and i have been blessed with this ability to really communicate and connect with people, so people feel like they know me, and so when they have to talk about the situation, it is hard for them. when i travel, di wii will be h, when i travel people say i want to give you a hug and i feel bad for you. they don't know why, but they feel bad for me, so the journey has been a rough one, but i am happy to say that i'm finally at a place where i'm at peace, if i can -- if you can understand that. i made some horrible choices in my past. >> what was the single worst moment for you of the whole thing? when you look back. >> enp the single worst moment was sitting in solitary confinement on my boy's birthday and not getting a chance to talk to them or hold them or hug them and knowing not -- and people might be surprised by that. it wasn't having to give back my medals, and it wasn't the scandal, and it wasn't all that, and it was not -- but i think that disappointing the ones who loved me and cared for me and supported me and cheered me on knowing that i hurt them. that to me was the single, and it is what i deal with everyday. that doesn't go away. you know, i -- >> how have you dealt with that? you have two kids who were pretty young at the time. >> yes. one was turning 1 and one was turning 4. >> so too young to understand. >> yes. >> and even now, are they aware of what happened to you? >> no, they are not aware. we have been pretty open with my oldest who is 8 years old. sharing with him certain things, but they have -- they don't really understand. we planned certainly to be when we feel like they are ready to share certain things with them, and share the story with them, but in my household, we teach our kids that we all make mistakes, like mommy makes mistakes. i'm not an exception, but it is what you do after the mistake. you know, do you try to cover it up? you know, i made the unfortunate choice the try to cover it up, and i made things a lot worse. do you cover it up and then get mom and dad really upset with you or do you come to el the us what you did and we deal with it and move on so when i talk with young people now, that is what i tell them. okay. you are going to be make a mistake and be prepared, but do the right thing afterwards. >> and my attitude towards -- i have never met you before today, and it is probably like most people's, but having shared your dream, and this amazing olympic games that you have and then the terrible disappointment to find that, you know, for want of a better phrase you cheated in some way. what i'm curious about is what your emotional journey has been with yourself. >> yes. >> through that process. just tell me. >> wow. it has been a complete 360. you know, i certainly think that i got caught in a wave. that is how i describe all of this. i got caught up in the wave of fame and fortune and people telling me, patting me on the back, and telling me how great i was. and ignoring red flags. you know. >> how intoxicating is it, if you are the -- when i watch usain bolt right now, and he is so sublimely arrogant and he does the big bolt and also this incredible athlete. and you know he is loving every second, but you know that in itself can be dangerous. you have been in that position. how intoxicating is that? >> whew. incredibly. incredibly. the mistake that i made is that i surrounded myself with people that would only pat me on the back and tell me that everything that i was doing and saying was right. i distanced from people who would give it to me straight. like for example, my relationship with my mom, the one person who would give it to me straight and i knew she would, so i distanced myself. >> you didn't want to hear it. >> i didn't want to hear it. you don't want to hear that things don't look right. you want to go with the wave. it is a big mistake that i made. i tell young people, hey, you know, when you get advice from people, make sure it is people who is going to give it to you straight. >> you were how old when you won those medals? 23? >> yes, but even before then at the age of 15, i made the first olympic team, and you realize that when you are number one, more people want to talk to you. when you are number one, you make more money. and you become important. and that's who you become. and i realized while i was in prison in solitary in particular that being number one and being marion jones meant nothing in there. >> yeah, i mean, it is the reality check of all checks. >> well shgs s, it is an underst to say it was a humbling experience, but in the same breath, i have to say it was a blessing. it was a blessing for me. >> what did you learn about yourself? >> well, i realize that my priorities were totally out of whack. and that i had to figure out who i was and not marion jones, the super star athlete, the pretty smile, the charm and all that. who am i? why did i make the certain choices? and now more importantly, how do i move forward? and it forced me to figure out, you made some bad choices, but it is not over. things can and will get better if i don't just sit on my tail. >> and it has been a catastrophic episode for you over the last few years, but in a funny way, finding yourself may be something that you never would have done if you carried on being marion jones the super star. >> you are right. i agree with you 100%, it wouldn't have happened. it wouldn't have happened and i possibly could have been caught up in the wave that took me so far out that i couldn't get back. >> let's take a short break because i want to talk to you about when you were on the crest of the wave and what happened when the wave broke. 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>> not too long after i plead guilty. and it was simple. it was not anything very complicated, but is simple embrace and the whispered sound of my mom saying "i love you no matter what." so it was hard. it is painful, and even when i talk to her and i see her, and my family and my close friends, you know, i feel a sense of guilt for disappointing them. >> because your mother, i guess, had lived the great highs. >> yes. >> and had been like any mother would be, your daughter is a supreme olympic champion, and it is the american dreamt the finest. >> yes. >> and then it becomes a total nightmare. >> and as a mom, it is tough, because, she can't do anything about it. you know, that's -- i'm her baby and her baby is an adult and makes certain choice, and all she can do from a distance is pray and love on me as much as she can, but she can't do anything about it. and so i can only imagine as a mother, myself, that feeling. and i think -- >> was she angry with you? >> no. no, i mean, i think that throughout the journey and throughout everything, there are moments that she was angry, because she could see me making poor choices. and would share with me and that is why i think i started to become more and more distant. >> what is the most angry she got with you and the poorest choice that your mom thinks that you made? >> my relationship with men, and -- >> it has not been great. >> no, it hasn't, but third time is a charm. >> why were you attracted to the bad guys? >> you know, i think i saw something in them that perhaps that was lacking in h my childhood. as i mentioned, my mom was a single mom, and so my biological father was never part of my life. >> do you have any relationship with him at all? >> no, no. >> and so you were craving a kind of father substitute possibly? >> possibly. possibly. i -- i -- yeah, i think that is safe to say that. >> is he still alive your biological father? >> no, he has passed. >> do you have any feelings about that when you heard? >> i did. it was very emotional time for me simply because i got a call from the friend of his saying that he had passed, and he had not been in contact with me for 15 years, and then this friend tell tells me that, but he kept an album of all of my accomplishments. i went to the funeral and i sat on the front row of the church, and because i was the only, his only off sprispring and yet you people were getting up to speak about him saying that he was a father to them, and i could not say that, so it was really, really difficult for me to deal with all of that. so i am not saying that is the reason of poor choice in relationships, but possibly it contributed. >> but not having a strong male presence in your life and all of the pressure on your mom the bring you up and everything, it can't help, can it? it is not going to help. >> i certainly know from a young age, we realized that i was a blessed with so much talent and from an early age my mom has shared with me as she likes to call them the pariahs started coming out of the woodwork when they saw that there was a golden ticket in me. she is a single mom, and so they would come out of nowhere and say things about that. >> and it is like a shark pool, isn't it? >> yes. >> and you are the best bait in town, and it is the shark pool and they are all nibbling and wants a piece of the action. >> it is easy to protect when the child is at home, but by the time that the child is away from home and going off to college, how much protecting can you do? >> let's take another break, because i want to come back to talk to you about the moment that the door shuts in prison on that first night. how you were feeling, and then i want to go to happier times. >> yes, can we get there quick, please? >> we can get there reasonably quick. sweet! 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