markets. made in germany. your business magazine. w. when me if someone had told me back then if you don't eat now you'll be dead tomorrow i still couldn't have eaten all. anorexia starving yourself down to nothing it often affects girls mostly when they're young sometimes it stays with you forever until you die. i didn't want to die out the way i felt back then i didn't want to keep on living either but. i want to find out more why do people do this to themselves. this is just a suburban of living just. i wanted to make it as small as possible the less there is of me the less burden there is to get the hope is the main problem is that they don't know who they are it wasn't your own does the person the eating disorders are almost like a partner for life a partner or even a best friend online lots of girls refer to it as an auction it up i get so upset when they say things like anna is getting so loud. you don't want all that. i wonder whether social media blogs and instagram photos contribute to the problem where the anorexic girls hang out online. while your parents are flabby your stomach is soft and your thighs are a disaster we're surrounded by all sorts of slender women who gather likes for their bodies you can see instagram photos of girls who are clearly anorexic i'm interested in chatting with some of them so we set out to join a pro and a whatsapp group i contact several of the girls. and it worked one of the admins gets back to me i'll call her and to join the group i have to tell her my current weight and my desired weight she also wants some pictures now on any just photo shop i become helen nineteen years old one meter seventy tall current weight fifty eight kilos desired weight fifty kilos the admin sent me the rules for the group. there are pretty strict. off list every evening you have to list how much you've eaten and what you ate how you can't take in more than a thousand calories a day and there are weekly challenges wonder what that's all about. and you have to post a new picture of your body every week. why are they also into this why are they obsessed about their weight i want answers during my research i come across a girl called laney she's posted several you tube videos about her anorexia and she's quite open about it. today i'm going to talk about addiction to pro and i pages. poor poor. i'm going to switzerland to meet her linnaeus twenty two years old not very tall and has been living with her eating disorder for five years . hi how are you nice to meet you in person real lamey and i want to cook a meal later so we go to stock up on provisions it all started when lenny was seventeen first she started dieting then counting calories proportion strength and soon she was underweight but laney kept wanting to get thinner. with me i'd walk through the supermarket thinking i'll just rush through the supermarket and pick up only what i need. but sometimes i felt so happy here that i could have sat down for two hours and said to myself i don't need anything. live again that can take time. to r.c. think they. decide when we're in reality that's where normal life takes place because if we can't learn to integrate into that in here then i don't know where else we can see it was announced. rosie is fifty and has been living with her eating disorder for more than thirty years three decades. will call this woman junia she doesn't want to be identified both patients suffer from deeply rooted psychological problems. even the both have been fighting an eating disorder for so many years they're still ill how could they have gotten in so deep as it's been of the my first thought was ok blame girls inferiority complexes and even anorexia on germany's next top model and all those instagram photos dumbass in some article. i think that's. when germany's next top model came back on t.v. lots of radio stations. would call us to ask what our patients thought about it now and they all answered are you crazy do you really think this caused my own ass my nuts. as a deficit i mean really how superficial this is of the from a scientific point of view society's obsession with losing weight and staying slim is of course a part of it without eating disorders probably wouldn't be an issue but many of these girls have problems dealing with life in general it's not easy you know it isn't. the girls we look after completely lost control somewhere along the way and they've developed these damn results to try to take back that control get their composites. and what about those social media groups like what's our facebook. have they changed anything how does a nerd. among the you'd have to gather scientific data i can't even gauge that but i have realized that these women have constructed an illusory reality that's linked to the eating disorder must be accomplished they have body scheme disorders and they don't trust their own perception of their bodies i've met girls who say things like your lying or photos of people who died of anorexia or fakes from the storm i seen things like that on pro and other sites the song it's like a cult when somebody would buy them if they don't get involved in this stuff find something else it's more like an expression of their personality disorder. it's easy to construct alternative realities on social media just like my whatsapp group of america does it i don't even noticed it with myself they're always writing me and that makes me think about it more than once instead of the stuff that you don't want to limit only exactly that way you won't have to worry about other things. other life demands can take a step back and you can take back control in a limited sector the main problem is that they don't know who they are. anymore. so the eating disorder becomes like a partner for life and if they let it go it's like getting divorced. they feel they've lost control they're overwhelmed and look for something they can control their body their weight that distracts them from bigger issues in their lives horsey and yulia have been living together for nine months yulia was pretty sick when she arrived last summer and our lives i just felt like i wanted to die i simply couldn't bear any more that this burden of living i wanted to make it as small as possible the less there is of me the less burden there is those were the kind of thoughts i had. as i spent a lot of time on facebook i had so many friends there and they post food pictures and so did i i was smaller and smaller portions but i didn't know what my liking them they'd reinforce my behavior. that was hard to digest i'm completely exhausted after the visit. you want to tell you were so open with me and i felt a little overwhelmed by a lot of what i was astonished by what they had to say. but it looks like they're both on the road to recovery. but i'm not done yet. there's still that whatsapp group it's time to leave. if you know cause i'm out now i told them i'm a reporter it feels a little strange but first i don't know if i did the right thing. maybe i should have offered them more help. but this feels right there. if that can even be said about a group like this. and if either way for you i'm glad to have gotten out of their. cut. cut your bags for a summer vacation special through germany by water. we say the house both through the mecklenburg lake district. and admire councils on the rise. and shale on plentiful make constants. next on d. w. . entered the conflict zone confronting the powerful twenty years ago the good friday agreement paved the way to end two decades of bitter conflict in the long island but the results have been mixed my guest this week here in dublin is. full marash prime minister just how far john is the process not. very good a source of conflict so for in sixty minutes he jokes. that